The Actor

My lips sealed but this heart is left to speak,
You listen because you enjoy me, this lie
Courage is difficult to have when you're weak,
When I give my hellos I mean to say goodbye:

Maskless, naked of make up I perform to you,
More likely you’ll believe in my honest character
Then be thickly painted and powered in rose or some blue
Granting me a role I’m no worse or even better
Trusting at a hint that in time will matter!

Adorned by your soft imagination,
In the shadowed folds of this clothing fantasy
A hidden truth haunts this dark role: emotion!
I do not smile and I do not weep as the man you see
But you do not notice this! Beautiful Treachery!

I throw his heart to that single shade of truth
Desperate it would cover me, absolve me of lies,
There to save my soul, and thoughts of youth
Clinging to that corner; lying there in guilt’s demise,
Offering a relief to my hidden pain and cries.

The closing curtain waits to swallow and end this show
Taking away your attention and your addressing cheer
A new night I wait for to appear and it lets me go….
But again I speak these same words… any other my dear?
The light blinds me from seeing, you were ever here?